Wow 2 posts in 2 days. As I sit here at my computer, little feet patter up and so sweetly ask for some orange juice. Kind words for a tired momma. It has been a long week, full of tiredness and emotions. Struggling to make all the ends meet and work. Children who feel my stress and react with bad behavior, momma's tired and does not handle it well. Sometimes its hard to do this alone. God's natural order is for 2 parents for when one falls the other can lift him up. When I fall who is there. Maybe not a physical person but God is (and my poor mom who has to listen to me cry 25o0 miles away). But I yearn for the physical embrace of a partner someone to hold me at night and hug all my fears away. But God can do that, but do I allow him to. Maybe this is my path until I decide (open my heart) that he is all I really need. My grace is sufficient for thee. Help me be open to your loving arms and not be looking for comfort from expectations.
Life is hard, but many are much worse of than I am. I have my health and the kids health we have a place to lay our heads. We have a loving Father in heaven who is watching over us, taking care of us, and ultimately building us a place for eternity that will never have any of the problems we face here on earth.

The Lord Bless us and Keep us and give us Peace. Praying for the peace that passeth all understanding.

One week ago today

One week ago today at 10:38 am est my father entered into the presense of our Lord. We were able to say good bye. I have lost my father and my children have lost their pop pops and my mother has lost her husband of 42 years. We knew it was coming, still it is so sad to think of all the things we will not be able to do with him. He passed away on his 70th birthday. A mile stone he wanted to make. I know thathe wanted a birthday party, we wanted to give it to him here on earth, God wanted to give him one in heaven, which I am sure surpassed anything we could have done. I was able to say Goodbye and tell him everything I needed to.
How was I so blessed to have parents that have prayed for me and loved me and taught me the things that are important. God first. Parents who took me to Sunday School and to the Remebrance of the Lord on Sundays, Christian school, bible conference, and Camps. What a difference if it was not this way. But our parents can not choose for us to be Christians to follow the Lord, its a path we must choose for ourselves. I made tht choice long ago and have strayed from it often. The Lord has brought me back often on my knees. Someone sent me a note saying how he does not refine us using anesthesia but often the hard way, I know that is how I have and its also how I have learned. Lord help me to stand up and stand strong and walk with you whatever the path YOU have chosen for me to go. Thank you for my parents. Let me be an example to my children that my parents were to me. Please Lord let the circle be unbroken.