The End of the Year

Out with the old in with the new. This has been a year, changes and more changes laughter and tears.

Filled with learning and relearning...trusting and wavering. Making a resolution will you stick with it, I make many resolutions but not in the new year's eve. Intention ... high to keep them going reality not so high but I try and I will keep trying.

If I look around I see answers to prayers, I do not even need to look far or hard, He has carried us through this year, He has never faltered, I many a times have I faltered.

I simply want to thank him. Thank you for walking with me and carrying me and being with me. I never would have made it alone. Help me to continue putting your will in front of mine. You are so much better at this.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, may I come to love you even more.

Its Christmas morning and all are asleep.....how is it today is the day the choose to sleep in, In a few minutes all chaos will erupt. Now I sit and have a wonderful cup of coffee ooooh i hear little feet to be continued

today I will trust

The path that I am on is very shaky. A bridge over rough waters its only one plank width and has no rails. If I look at what I should focus on ...which is His ability to help me safely cross the bridge I will make it, if I look down I won't. Lord help me to keep my eyes focused on you. When my heart is overwhelmed lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
My heart is overwhelmed, fear is set in. I sit here and listen for a phone that is not ringing. Can I sit here and enjoy the quiet or am I going to sit here and panic. The choice is mine. The deliverance is His. Why would I even think that my way is more helpful. Let me tell you its not.

Lord hear my cry and help me to know that if your eye is on the sparrow I know you are watching over us

The Lord is my Shepard....

I shall not want. He says it all right there. I shall not want. He layeth beside me..... he is always with us ...he will never leave or forsake us. He has the power to change everything....if he did make it all right and easy would I learn, would I love, would I trust.....

Sometimes the hardest lessons we need to learn the hard way......but we learn them, and they bring us closer to our First Love, may all the lessons I learn, need to learn or have learned bring me one step farther in my relationship with God.

I know he loves and will take care of us....sometimes its easier to have head knowledge than heart knowledge.

My plea is to have the knowledge in my heart.

Not Me Lord

So often we look around and we see what others have and its human nature we want it. I look at mom and dads out to dinner and I wonder why not me Lord...... sometimes its hard to change our mental picture of what we thought our life would turn out like. Never did I think I would be alone, raising children. Never did I think I would be the mom who did not have a mate. But did I follow the path I was supposed to follow or are all these happenings of my life because I chose to follow the path I wanted and not the path that He chose for me. Are many of the things consequences of our actions. We are forgiven but we still have to stand and face the music.

In a lecture I recently heard...he talked about David and how he when he dwelled in the cave and how God worked on him in the cave and how most of Gods best work comes when we are in the cave....alone and in the dark. That's were God works the best. I have to realize I am a work in progress he is not finished with me yet and all the hardships and trials are teaching me to lean on him not only sometimes but to trust in him 100 percent not 99 but 100 percent he has our best interest at heart

ME

As I sit here at my computer, I wonder why I am afraid, He has carried me so far why do I doubt Him why can I not just trust Him. Why do I keep putting my trust in Him and as soon as I get shakey I get scared........ Not Me Lord.......pick some one else teach them these lessons I am tired
Why me, Why not me.......... I have so much to learn....... about trust. Please teach me to trust...teach me