Not Me Lord

So often we look around and we see what others have and its human nature we want it. I look at mom and dads out to dinner and I wonder why not me Lord...... sometimes its hard to change our mental picture of what we thought our life would turn out like. Never did I think I would be alone, raising children. Never did I think I would be the mom who did not have a mate. But did I follow the path I was supposed to follow or are all these happenings of my life because I chose to follow the path I wanted and not the path that He chose for me. Are many of the things consequences of our actions. We are forgiven but we still have to stand and face the music.

In a lecture I recently heard...he talked about David and how he when he dwelled in the cave and how God worked on him in the cave and how most of Gods best work comes when we are in the cave....alone and in the dark. That's were God works the best. I have to realize I am a work in progress he is not finished with me yet and all the hardships and trials are teaching me to lean on him not only sometimes but to trust in him 100 percent not 99 but 100 percent he has our best interest at heart